The Seventeenth.

I'm eating oatmeal, I can't remember the last time I ate oatmeal. Nor can I remember the last time I cried, but for some reason I'm doing that now. I don't know why, I guess I had a doldrum kind of day. I prepared for school and I realized how quickly one month of my life could just float on by and how quickly I regret not spending my time well. Tonight at lifegroup (which I was very excited to be at!) we all shared a significant event that happened to us over break. A lot of people talked about Haiti, this is when I had fits of jealousy asking God why I wasn't called to go and serve there, why I felt as though my winter break was a useless one.  I shared this blog as my one significant event, that it is changing the way I think and the way I see things and how I always end back to Him and how this has kind of made me realized that my thoughts tend to be God-centered, yet I think I'm just not listening or doing something with them. Anyway, someone shared how last semester they weren't being intentional with their time and I feel like that is probably why I felt like this today. So I guess my goal for the semester is to be more intentional with my time, for my time and thoughts to be more God focused. I guess we all have days like this, when the funk overwhelms the daily routine.

So, I guess I have two goals for the semester: Be intentional with my time, find something that I'm passionate about.

School starts for me in less than 10 hours so I must get some sleep, hopefully tomorrow I will wake up on the brighter side of the bed, and not feel so down. It's also interesting to me,  how quickly the people in my life noticed and cared for me as soon as I seemed abnormal to them. I'm so thankful that I have these loving and caring people in my life, I honestly cannot express the gratitude for their suggestions and listening that they offer. I guess, I'm not normally like this, so gloomy. I imagine if I was a cartoon I would have a rain cloud over my head right now.

I found out today, that I can't blog at work. I tried to get on blogger and it just wouldn't let me. Darn you blocked sites.

Here's to a better day :)